ON BEING A MISFIT

 I feel  many of us are really misfits but we come to it too late to do anything about it.I knew I was misfit at an early age though I didn't have a name for what it was. My first day of kindergarten I left the class room and went home. I told my mom I didn't like it and I don't do naps. I do recall I felt trapped. My mom was horrified I crossed two very busy blvd's and walked almost a mile home . She took me back to school and went nutz on the teacher for letting me leave  . The teacher had no idea I was even gone. So  my education had started and things went down hill from that point on. Mostly I was bored out of my brain  and ditched or spent my time looking out of a widow . I felt boxed in 

Later on I would read a book in class . More later, enough of that for now . On escaping from the horrors of High school I was so smart I joined the Marine Corps looking back I have no idea why  I did but it was a bonehead move . I remember the DI yelling at me private dipshit you are walking not marching , well damn I thought I was marching but he didn't . I never did get it right. What I did get was I could do more push
ups than anyone  and more pull ups plus a few other things like run forever miles and miles . Not boxed in anymore when I ran . But boxed in the Corps I didn't fit the program . A misfit. I did my job but that was it no extra effort on my part . Bored again.

  It is a small wonder I got out after four years with an honorable discharge but came close to the brig more than a few times. So okay now genius what now 'i got a crappy job working in a warehouse on the loading docks .now I was married and had a little girl one of my best moves ever .But I in a box at work with a jerk for a boss . Everyone else seemed happy with the job not me though. I was the misfit .

Then followed a bunch of jobs never fit in those either... bored again. but primitive skills  were out there plus I was interested in the music biz  ended up as a music publisher and a sometimes songwriter did that for about 40 years  and it gave me the time I needed for the outdoors skills  I craved but during all of this I knew I was a misfit but by now I was proud of it  Now at almost 82  I'm still a misfit , don't like senior centers  or the so called activities I don't like games  don't play cards etc.  And those places are jammed with old farts that I never have a thing in common with. Writing and the study of primitive skills and the study of  primitive tribes from all over the world are a subject I love to  gather info about those that know me know that I have a passion for the Apache peoples  so you don't have to leave the states to study these fine examples of how to live.

 Being a misfit at times has been tough on me and my family but being a misfit is not a choice it just is . You might try and change but it will last only for a short time and then you you will relapse to the misfit monster and walk off another job. Misfits just fit in any old place as there is not a place to fit in.  Unless you get lucky like I did but you take a lot of lumps along the way so you gotta be tough and bite the well known bullet. I like being a misfit  sometimes its just fun but ya cant be worried about what others think about you its your path and at times you are the pathfinder cutting away the crap of life and creating your own life that is satisfying to you. So embrace it you misfits  I love ya.




 by Dude  McLean